Today was hard for me. The first Father's Day without my dad. Actually the past couple of days have been hard. We returned to our house and suddenly I felt overwhelmed with sadness and anger. I know I shouldn't be shocked by these feelings but I think I have been in shock for the past couple of months. Then busy with details mixed with outbursts of crying. Then numb. And now I am pissed. It doesn't seem right to have Father's Day without him here. Like a cranky little girl I want "my daddy". I know he's in a better place. And I know that he will live on in his work, in his grandchildren, in his students, in all those that loved him....but I can not deny it. I am angry and sad and I am going to eat one of those Kit Kat bars tonight.
This was our last photograph together. Saying good-bye in front of my parents' house...January 2008.
Im so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in 2000. I hate to tell you this, it doesnt get easier, just different. I guess the pain lessens a bit but it still always hurts. They are in a better place and always with you.
You have honored him well in these posts, and your love for him is so apparent. The photo captures that perfect love shared between a father and daughter. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Wonderful post, Lucia. My dad died in May 2006 and I have since experienced such a wide range of emotions about it that I have learned to try to not have any expectations and/or judgments about the feelings and just take them as they come. Don't know if that makes any sense, but I think that's the best way I can explain it. Thinking of you.
I think it is those small things that deepen relationships. I love that memory of your dad - and the picture of you two together is perfect. I'm still thinking about you, friend.
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