Weeding

We are back in Florida. We spent yesterday doing "normal" stuff which felt so good after being in the hospital, being on the road, eating all meals out, and living out of hotels. Noah had a soccer game. Adam and the kids washed the car. And I spent the day weeding which is truly one of the most therapeutic activities. Always feels good to get my hands back in the dirt. Good release for all of the frustration and angst from the past couple of weeks. Nice way to give my mind a break from all of the racing thoughts, the endless logistics (coming and going, Adam's upcoming deployment, our move to Louisiana for the summer or possibly longer, the floor repairs, etc), and the existential questions (why is this happening?). And best of all at the end of the weeding session I was able to step back and see an outcome. After living with weeks of unknowns and things out of my control, it felt so nice to have a physical accomplishment...a garden free of weeds.

It was hard not to think about my parents yesterday and wish I could do some kind of magical "weeding" and suddenly clear up all of the medical issues and transport them back home. The good news is that yesterday was a fairly peaceful day for both of them. No tests, no crisis situations, just resting. Hoping they have another peaceful day today and hoping the steroids are starting to do their job. My sister, Lili and Pris (a good family friend who had been with my mom since last week) had to go home this weekend. My Aunt Claire is headed up there today to take their places. We also have cousins in the DC area who have been a huge support to my parents. And to all of the other friends and family members who have reached out to us in so many thoughtful ways...thank you. Big thanks especially to Amy and Mike for letting us spend the night, Rabbi Jessica for the afternoon visit, Laureen for the bagels yesterday morning, and Nisha for the cooler full of amazing food that was waiting on our doorstep after our long drive home.